Just Musing

It’s a rarity that I don’t spin on a Saturday even though I had a bike I decided to cancel within the last hour. Not because I was tired or bored but well just because. Learning to follow what my body tells my mind is the path I am on these days and I trust it. Intuition never seems to fail me in fact when I don’t listen its trouble I find. 

Not going I may have saved myself an accident or a ticket or better yet increased my desire to spin tomorrow with the Blue Sapphire Carolyn Mellace. I will make a game time decision on that but I think a day’s reprieve is never a bad thing with my addictive personality. My mind says that perhaps a run might serve to break up my one-track obsession. I sometimes ask if I miss running? I have Michael and Constance Korol, Tripp Doherty and Heatherr Feather to keep me thinking about it whether they are in some ultra-marathon or Ironman competition. But those days are gone and I have no regrets.  I wish them well of course.

I had a short talk with Dana yesterday and I was relating to her about being seated or standing in session and although KJ hates when we sit I find that I work much harder in the saddle and my knee is the less for wear when the saddle is where my gluteus maximus finds itself. When I first started and I watched some of our female members pedaling in a blur I thought I could never move that quickly. Turns out much later that I could but it always seemed a balancing act. What I also found since we now have those confounded new monitors is that as soon as I would breakaway my watts would drop precipitously below 200. I don’t know why that bothers me but it seems to me that standing takes a more concentrated effort to stay above 200. Could it be that standing burns more calories? I don’t know and why am I even debating it is after all my ride.  

A Saturday without KSC is a day without sunshine but I’ll be back in the saddle soon enough. 

Louder Than Words

We’ve (well most of us) have heard the cliché: Actions speak louder than words. And most times that’s true but there are times that actions need words too because like a tree falling in the woods does the descending tree make a sound?  The thought is that words backed up with action are the strongest message because after all we want both to reach to those intended. 

So often relationships are about reciprocity when they seem to fall out of balance we let the other tree fall when if we lent just a little more support stronger roots could take hold. Selfless acts require courage and never a scale. Measuring what we’ve done and brought to the table are but echoes in the dark. If we love someone really love someone whether it be romantic love, a dear friend or even a sibling there can be never enough action and never enough words of love we can express waiting for the other to respond. 

I listened quite intently to KJ today and being a friend of Bill Wilson I learned that we could never blame someone else for things they have done or what they have failed to do. That is judgment plain and simple. There’s no room for judgment in this world we all have our own lives to lead and no one can really know what we are going through unless we walk in the others shoes. I say keep-bringing love no matter if they hear the tree falling or not. 

Saturday KSC brought me a beautiful message courtesy of Kristen James. A beautiful relationship we have too. I’m not her buddy, I don’t text her nor do I have her phone number I only have this forum and for as long as these legs can pedal I’ll be grateful. And to all my friends in this class that I have learned to love; thank you.